Etymology switcheroo
Eda bu son / Emre Sururiöldüm. sonra tekrar, tekrar dirildim. öldüm diyorum, ama herşey o kadar bariz
bir şekilde kurmacaydı ki. yani bir nevi enayi yerine konma durumu gözlerden
kaçan nesnelerin yarattığı aydınlanma sonucunda. bir sahnede ölenlerin birinin
kolunda dijital bir saat olması gerekiyordu, durumu çaktırmak maksadından
hükümlü, yattığım yerden baktım, saati göremedim, o vakit anladım ki ben
ölmüşüm ve de ben gelmişim bir yerlere (ama hala yerde yatmaktayım). feci
şekilde midem bulandı önce, çünkü yerde yatanın mı yoksa yüksekten bakanın mı,
hangisinin ben olduğunu sezinleyemedim, özür dilerim. inancımı aklımı
yitirişimin akabinde yitirdim, özür dilerim. mazeretlerim kalmadı artık,
biliyorum, özür bile dileyemiyorum şimdi senden, sadece ölüp geri geldiğimi
bil diyecektim ama sonradan hatırladım ki bunu bile isteyemem senden - yüzüne
telefonu kapatmıştım çünkü. kısa düdük sesleri.. kısa.. kısa.. düdük sesleri..
kısa.. düdük.. sesleri. son yok, hayatımın bundan sonrası tekrara alındı.
nasıl demiştim hatırla, "yatağıma döndüğümde hala sıcaktı".
18,19,12,1996,B,En.
"Onun ülkesinde de yağmur yağıyordu. Şarküteriden bir şişe isanın kanını alıp
içtim. Tadı damağımda kaldı. Elimi öptü, fenalaştım, vedalaştık. herşey
rüyadaymışım gibi oldu. yatağıma döndüğümde daha soğumamıştı.", eda'bi #4
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aynen olduğu gibi alınmıştır, hep öyle kal ne olursun.
Apart
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Main riff: (with flanger and slow echo)
E-------------------------------|
B-------------------------------| (let ring for another measure)
G-----------2---0h2-------------|
D-------------------------------|
A-------0-----------------------|
E---5---------------------------|
Repeat this constantly (i.e., every other measure)
Synth line adapted for guitar:
One measure each of a swell on the following chords:
Am--221-
G --000-
Dm--323-
Am (same)
then this riff
B----5---5---5---6---------5--|-------3-------5--------3------|
B-------------3------5--------|-------------------------------|
G----5------------------------|--------5----------------------|
At the end of the first verse play the following fill (mixed low)
Dm---312 (four measures)
(strum pattern is easy enough to figure out; precision isn't important here
anyway. Vary it a bit by not sounding all three notes; also, in the fourth
measure play a slide up to the 5th fret of the high E string)
Repeat, but play this for fourth measure:
E (high)------3/5---5-----5-----5
In second verse, play this fill at the line "He waits to hear her..."
(let ring throughout)
E----------0---------------|------------3------------|
B----3--------3------3-----|------3--------3-----3---|
G-2-----2---------2-----2--|--0------0--------0----0-|
Then repeat first measure twice. Repeat.
Play this fill underneath chorus
(you do not play the main riff here)
(Second measure of fill above), then:
(let ring throughout)
E-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-0----|------0---------0-------0--------|
B-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3----|---------0----------------0------|
G--------------------------------|--2---------5-------4------------|
(Repeat last measure of above)
(Repeat the whole thing)
Solo:
G----4--5--5/7-7--4-5---4--|---4------------------------|
D--------------------------|-------5--7--5---5---2-2-2--|
G------2-2----5--5---5-4-5-4-5-|--4-4-----------------|----4-5--7--7--4-5--4-|
D-3--3-------------------------|---------5/2----------|----------------------|
G--4----------------------------|-------2----2--5----4-5-4-5-|
D-----5-7--5----5-----2-2-2-----|--3--3----------------------|
E--------------------------5--5--|-5------------------------------|
B--------------------------------|-----8-8-8---5-5-5--------------|
G---4---4-5----7---7---7---------|--------------------5-5-5---4-5-|
G--4--5--4/0-----------------|--------2---2---5------4--5~~-----|
D-----------------------2--2-|--3---3---------------------------|
E--3--3-----------3--3-----------|-----------------------------|
B--------------------------------|---5-6-5--5-6-5--5-6-5--5-6--|
G--------4---5~~~--------4--5~~~-|-----------------------------|
B---6/8---8--8-8-8-8-6-5----------|--------------------------|
G-------------------------5---5-5-|--5/7--7-7-7--------------|
D---------------------------------|--------------7-7-7-7-5--7|
G-----------------------|----2---2-2-2--2--4---|---2-2-2-2-2--2--4----|
D-------7-5---7--7------|--------------------2-|--------------------2-|
D----5---5-5---3------------|-------------------|
A-----------------7/3-------|---2-3--2-3--2-3---|
G--2-2-2-2-2--2--4------|--2-2-2-2-2--2--4---|
D-------------------2---|------------------2-|
D----5-5-5-5-5-3------|----------------------|
A----------------7/3--|-----2-3---2--2-3---2-|
Then third verse as before into chorus and end.
Chords:
Am G Dm Am
he waits for her to understand, but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call, but he won't call anymore
he waits to hear her say: forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say 'i love you'
but he tells no more lies
he waits for her to sympathize, but she won't sympathize at all
she waits all night to feel his kiss but always wakes alone
he waits to hear her say: forget
but she just hangs her head in pain
and prays to hear him say 'no more'
i'll never leave again
G Dm Am
how did we get this far apart?
Am G
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
he waits for her to understand but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call, but he won't call
he waits to hear her say: forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say 'i love you'
but he tells no more lies
how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
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bir şekilde kurmacaydı ki. yani bir nevi enayi yerine konma durumu gözlerden
kaçan nesnelerin yarattığı aydınlanma sonucunda. bir sahnede ölenlerin birinin
kolunda dijital bir saat olması gerekiyordu, durumu çaktırmak maksadından
hükümlü, yattığım yerden baktım, saati göremedim, o vakit anladım ki ben
ölmüşüm ve de ben gelmişim bir yerlere (ama hala yerde yatmaktayım). feci
şekilde midem bulandı önce, çünkü yerde yatanın mı yoksa yüksekten bakanın mı,
hangisinin ben olduğunu sezinleyemedim, özür dilerim. inancımı aklımı
yitirişimin akabinde yitirdim, özür dilerim. mazeretlerim kalmadı artık,
biliyorum, özür bile dileyemiyorum şimdi senden, sadece ölüp geri geldiğimi
bil diyecektim ama sonradan hatırladım ki bunu bile isteyemem senden - yüzüne
telefonu kapatmıştım çünkü. kısa düdük sesleri.. kısa.. kısa.. düdük sesleri..
kısa.. düdük.. sesleri. son yok, hayatımın bundan sonrası tekrara alındı.
nasıl demiştim hatırla, "yatağıma döndüğümde hala sıcaktı".
18,19,12,1996,B,En.
"Onun ülkesinde de yağmur yağıyordu. Şarküteriden bir şişe isanın kanını alıp
içtim. Tadı damağımda kaldı. Elimi öptü, fenalaştım, vedalaştık. herşey
rüyadaymışım gibi oldu. yatağıma döndüğümde daha soğumamıştı.", eda'bi #4
*****************************************************************************
aynen olduğu gibi alınmıştır, hep öyle kal ne olursun.
Apart
-----
Main riff: (with flanger and slow echo)
E-------------------------------|
B-------------------------------| (let ring for another measure)
G-----------2---0h2-------------|
D-------------------------------|
A-------0-----------------------|
E---5---------------------------|
Repeat this constantly (i.e., every other measure)
Synth line adapted for guitar:
One measure each of a swell on the following chords:
Am--221-
G --000-
Dm--323-
Am (same)
then this riff
B----5---5---5---6---------5--|-------3-------5--------3------|
B-------------3------5--------|-------------------------------|
G----5------------------------|--------5----------------------|
At the end of the first verse play the following fill (mixed low)
Dm---312 (four measures)
(strum pattern is easy enough to figure out; precision isn't important here
anyway. Vary it a bit by not sounding all three notes; also, in the fourth
measure play a slide up to the 5th fret of the high E string)
Repeat, but play this for fourth measure:
E (high)------3/5---5-----5-----5
In second verse, play this fill at the line "He waits to hear her..."
(let ring throughout)
E----------0---------------|------------3------------|
B----3--------3------3-----|------3--------3-----3---|
G-2-----2---------2-----2--|--0------0--------0----0-|
Then repeat first measure twice. Repeat.
Play this fill underneath chorus
(you do not play the main riff here)
(Second measure of fill above), then:
(let ring throughout)
E-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-0----|------0---------0-------0--------|
B-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3----|---------0----------------0------|
G--------------------------------|--2---------5-------4------------|
(Repeat last measure of above)
(Repeat the whole thing)
Solo:
G----4--5--5/7-7--4-5---4--|---4------------------------|
D--------------------------|-------5--7--5---5---2-2-2--|
G------2-2----5--5---5-4-5-4-5-|--4-4-----------------|----4-5--7--7--4-5--4-|
D-3--3-------------------------|---------5/2----------|----------------------|
G--4----------------------------|-------2----2--5----4-5-4-5-|
D-----5-7--5----5-----2-2-2-----|--3--3----------------------|
E--------------------------5--5--|-5------------------------------|
B--------------------------------|-----8-8-8---5-5-5--------------|
G---4---4-5----7---7---7---------|--------------------5-5-5---4-5-|
G--4--5--4/0-----------------|--------2---2---5------4--5~~-----|
D-----------------------2--2-|--3---3---------------------------|
E--3--3-----------3--3-----------|-----------------------------|
B--------------------------------|---5-6-5--5-6-5--5-6-5--5-6--|
G--------4---5~~~--------4--5~~~-|-----------------------------|
B---6/8---8--8-8-8-8-6-5----------|--------------------------|
G-------------------------5---5-5-|--5/7--7-7-7--------------|
D---------------------------------|--------------7-7-7-7-5--7|
G-----------------------|----2---2-2-2--2--4---|---2-2-2-2-2--2--4----|
D-------7-5---7--7------|--------------------2-|--------------------2-|
D----5---5-5---3------------|-------------------|
A-----------------7/3-------|---2-3--2-3--2-3---|
G--2-2-2-2-2--2--4------|--2-2-2-2-2--2--4---|
D-------------------2---|------------------2-|
D----5-5-5-5-5-3------|----------------------|
A----------------7/3--|-----2-3---2--2-3---2-|
Then third verse as before into chorus and end.
Chords:
Am G Dm Am
he waits for her to understand, but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call, but he won't call anymore
he waits to hear her say: forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say 'i love you'
but he tells no more lies
he waits for her to sympathize, but she won't sympathize at all
she waits all night to feel his kiss but always wakes alone
he waits to hear her say: forget
but she just hangs her head in pain
and prays to hear him say 'no more'
i'll never leave again
G Dm Am
how did we get this far apart?
Am G
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
he waits for her to understand but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call, but he won't call
he waits to hear her say: forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say 'i love you'
but he tells no more lies
how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
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Poem Title: Eda bu son
Poet: Emre Sururi
Overview of the Textual Landscape
The poem is a collage that blends lyrical fragments, stage directions, and even guitar tablature. Its surface appears chaotic—shifting between personal confession, metaphysical speculation, and musical notation—but beneath that noise a few resonant themes emerge:
- Rebirth and Death as a Loop: The narrator repeatedly declares “ölüyorum” (I die) and then “dirildim” (I was resurrected), suggesting a cyclical relationship between loss and renewal.
- The Blur Between Reality and Fiction: Descriptions of a “digital clock” on a dead person’s arm, the impossibility of seeing it, and the narrator’s confusion about whether they are lying on the ground or looking from above hint at a dream‑like, unreliable reality.
- Alienation and Loneliness: Lines such as “sadece ölüp geri geldiğimi bil diyecektim ama sonradan hatırladım ki bunu bile isteyemem” (“I just wanted you to know I died and came back, but then I remembered I couldn’t even ask for that”) convey a profound sense of isolation.
- The Interplay of Music and Memory: The embedded guitar chords, riffs, and lyrical fragments from a separate song (“he waits for her…”) create a sonic frame that parallels the poem’s emotional rhythm. The repeated “kısa düdük sesleri” (short whistle sounds) echo the staccato beats of the tablature.
Structural Observations
- Fragmentation as Technique: The poem is intentionally disjointed. Each block—whether a prose passage, a musical notation, or an interjection like “aynen olduğu gibi alınmıştır”—acts as a self‑contained vignette that contributes to an overall sense of fragmentation.
- Repetition and Variation: The repeated motifs (“kısa düdük sesleri”, “hayatımın bundan sonrası tekrara alındı”) and the repeated musical phrases reinforce the theme of cyclical existence.
- Intertextual Layering: The final section contains a fully fleshed out song structure (chords, verses, chorus) that mirrors the emotional content of the earlier prose. This layering suggests that the poem is not merely about music but uses music as a vehicle for expressing personal anguish.
Interpretive Lens
From a psychoanalytic perspective, the narrator’s oscillation between death and resurrection can be read as an attempt to resolve unresolved grief or trauma. The digital clock—an object of time measurement—could symbolize the narrator’s attempt to anchor themselves in a concrete, measurable reality, yet its absence underscores an inability to find such anchors.
From a post‑structural angle, the poem’s refusal to present a single coherent narrative reflects the instability of meaning. The embedded musical notation acts as a meta‑textual device: it is both part of the poem’s content and an instruction for how the poem might be performed, thus collapsing the boundary between reader and performer.
Key Takeaways for Readers
- Embrace the ambiguity: The poem invites multiple readings rather than a single “correct” interpretation.
- Notice the rhythm: Even if you ignore the chords, the pacing of the prose mimics a musical beat.
- Explore the emotional core: Themes of loss, longing, and cyclical renewal recur throughout, offering a thread that ties the disparate fragments together.
In sum, Eda bu son is a hybrid text that uses the form of a poem, prose, and music to probe the complexities of identity, memory, and the endless loop between ending and beginning.
Note: this analysis was generated automatically and is still under development.
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